i really hate everyone.. i seriously want to leave this place. everyone gets on my nerves. i havent had a "fun" day in a while. i just sit around with nick all the time its really boring. and when i accually want to do something like lets see get some new clothes because i havent since two summers ago my mom decides not to show up at home til around 8ish so it was too late to go. and then i wanted to go to the movies today, but my dad "didnt have any money" he's such an ass. he gives my sister money everyday and goes golfing everyday but when i want to do something all of a sudden all the money on the earth dissapears  everyone in my family is so self-centered. and my dad was sittin there just calling me worthless. hes right im sick of feeling like trash and looking like trash and being treated like dirt. im sick of it all. i just want to die. and that is my final wish. i hate everybody rule #1 of life: dont trust anyone and be prepared for being put down, rule #2: never do anything nice for anyone, because reality is..they're just using you, rule #3:just give up, the more you try the worse it hurts, rule #4:achieiving anything is just a waste of time, nobody cares..

bah. i got a new journal. idk which one i like better this journal or the other one.. we'll see ... www.livejournal.com/~jismo

monday i went to the mall with nick andthen went over his house.... i got the cd metal for the masses vol. 2 and nick burned me a killswith engage cd..

tuesday nick came over and we went swimmin n stuff.. and today i went tothefair with nick to see demolition derby.. and yah i felt bad coz i forgot about it and i told rox we'd do somethin but i told nck id go like last week so ya i think we might do somethin tomorrow..well im outs.. byebye